Life's a dick

So do you know why life's a dick?
because...it gets hard for 'special' reasons~xD

Anyway, so what if life sucks?
Should I cry?
Complain?
Stop living?

Hmmmm...
Fuck it.
I'm so damn pissed off by exams, I don't give a shit.
Or rather exams are shit so why give a fuck.

I obviously need a break.
Lying on the bed.
Reading books.
Thinking of absolutely nothing.
Let my imagination take me.
Away from this shit hole.
Haha nice one.

Okay I'm a little cuckoo right now.

To all who are still breathing.
Cherish life or be perish for time doesn't wait, it just take.
Tick tock tick tock, fuck the world and suck my cock!!
Bwahahahahhaha

Astalabista and saiyanora mathafakas~
Juinn out.

Everything will be alright...

A lot has to been going on these few days.

The pain of losing someone...is just unexpectedly painful.

All I want to say is thank you for everything you have done to hold this family together and thanks for believing in me.

阿弥陀佛。

So...life goes on. 

For those who are still in pain, I know how you are feeling. 

The pain still haunts me some sleepless nights.

But guys, everything will be alright. It always will.

So wipe your tears. Calm yourself and stand up straight.

I'm pretty sure he will want all of us to be strong, just like him.

To be honest, totally bad timing.

With my interview on Monday and exams in the next few weeks, I am totally exhausted. Not even a good night sleep helps. It's...unbearable.

I'm so excited and sad and worried and nervous. 

I have no appetite but I still force myself as I need it.

I really hope everything works out well. 

I really need this to work out.

So if any of you have some spare luck, you mind wishing me?

Thanks. =]

Juinn.

Hopeful.

Fuck this and that!

Yes I'm serious. I wanna fuck this n that.
Know why? No? Me neither.

Well after thinking for awhile I think it's because I'm annoyed.
Annoyed of...everything.
Reasons? Cause I hate being pressured.
Makes me want to puke.
e.g.: EXAMS...
shit exams...I really wanna do good but ur name just make me wanna punch something.

I had already put in effort.
I have seen hope so please just please don't let me lose hope.
Just...go easy on me.

Sincerely，
Juinn
(fuck exams)

=)

Fuck Politics

I am a politic noob...
I dont give a shit about it...
So I'm just gonna pray for everybody's safety cause ypu never know, some ppl can just do crazy stuff.

Lastly...FUCK BN!!xD
(I just love saying that~^^)

Juinn out.

As usual

Like I like to say, whenever you feel down think that it's okay, because things can't get any worse right?
Now that I'm starting to feel great, everything just gets worse.
Curse my fucking motto!!!

Focus...focus...focus...
Study...study...study...

Just for your info, what you just said just made my day, no week, maybe even month a lot WORSE...
So...thanks a lot.

Juinn.

WOW...

How many months since I last seen my blog...
I have seriously been lazy...TOO lazy...
Anyways, after reading so many new(and old at the same time) blog posts, I have decided to write something.

Only problem is...what is that something? LOL

Lets start with...things that happened this past few months.
I got to say, things have been pretty excited these past few months.
I got rejected by all 4 universities for Medicine.
I dated someone that I was talked into by my 'lovely' friends.
I went to Munich and Amsterdam with the dudes(of course including my BFF Louis).
I started putting effort into my studies.
I turned 18.
I earned 50 pounds by washing lots and lots of teacups.
I ate a lot of takeaways.
I grew taller.(I think)
I work-shadowed in a hospital.
I didn't had a haircut since Christmas.
and I'm going to finish my A-levels in a few weeks time.

Well the rejections hit me pretty hard, especially the first one. It's like a meteor coming out of no where and hitting my breath out, breaking all my bones and pulverizing me in an instant. (I might have exaggerated a little). I admit I was lost for awhile. I was jealous of my friends who got offers, because of their 'special' skin colours. Like what my Chemistry teacher said:"Life isn't fair. Get over it." And I did. So after discussing for weeks and a few arguments, I have decided to enroll myself in IMU and study Medicine. Good thing they have a special programme where I can go to either UK or US after two and a half years. I'm seriously going to miss this place...

To be honest, I had no idea whatsoever in the 'let-Juinn-date-someone-before-he-leaves' mission. It was Spring Fling. I had a few drinks. I kissed someone. Done. Nothing more. However I did learn something for this weird experience. I miss being in love and kissing someone I'm not into is just...unsatisfying. I seriously need to train my endurance skills PRONTO!!!

Munich trip was nice and chill and...nice. Thanks to Louis and his dad, I had a great time. Good food, good beer, good scenery, good good good. On the other hand, Amsterdam trip was...a one heck of a trip. Shit happened. Once in a lifetime experience. And...I'm never going back to that place again. Although I got to say it is a very beautiful city. Also the ASOT experience was mind-blowing! For those who doesn't know ASOT stands for A state of trance where DJs play trance music which is something I'm new in but I kinda like it.

Putting effort into my studies is just something that came out of no where. An accident. I actually kinda enjoy it, but still so not the original me.

Ooooh...I turned 18. I'm officially old(by my own standards). 18 huh? Nothing much. A few drinks. Felt like an adult, but miss being a naive childish kid. Okay I'm starting to feel sad because of the fact I'm 18 so lets skip to the next one shale we?

Hard earned money is always the sweetest one. 50 pounds. Not much but still it was a fun, nice and cool experience. My once smooth hands became slightly rough but it was worth it.

Takeaways are very tempting. I have a bad feeling they might actually drug us to make us addicted to the food or something. The hard earned money above, most of it used for takeaways. Sad but it's the truth.

I grew taller. I'm not sure. Just a feeling as people and thins are getting smaller. However, my height is just not good enough. Grow Juinn! GROW! Hormones to your thing!

The hospital experience is one of the most valuable one. Surgeries, diagnosing, therapies, appointments, chatting with doctors. These are so so so awesome, I can't tell you how much I love it. The walk every morning was worth it and so you know I had to walk 40 minutes every morning in my leather shoes which isn't easy. I got to meet people who I am actually still in contact with, know some basics about being a doctor, pros and cons of being one and also preparing myself to face my absurd crazy future of being a doctor. Honestly I was creeped out by what they first told me but letting it sink in made me hold on to my decision much much stronger. Booyeah!

Haircuts here are so expensive so...don't blame my laziness. :P

Lastly before I go back to studying, I just want to say I'm seriously gonna miss this place and even though I might not be coming back again, you guys will always be in my memories and stories that I will tell others. I will say we are best friends, because good friends listen to my stories, but best friends will always be in my stories. Cheers guys and may the force be with you...during the exams. Good luck.

Juinn
over....n out =)

Christmas Partay ~ 30/11/2012

To be honest, I wasn't really looking forward to this party at all. My friend, Joel, who is in the student council said that preparation was horrible and I believed too for the budget was like so damn low. You can know I wasn't gonna party much that night if you saw what I wore - a blue button shirt, a short, flip-flops and a sleeveless jacket, which was totally no the type of shirt you wear to a party. LOL.

It was a non alcohol party.(serious). However, me n my friends did have some...coke mixed with vodka from Ukraine...before the party. Oh and I found out that the best ratio to mix vodka and coke is 1:4. LOL. We weren't drunk or high at all to be honest. We were just all calm and chilling. Everything went out of control when we went to the party.

The DJ was AWESOME! It was like he knows what songs to make you high and going. We were jumping, shouting, dancing, showing off our dance moves. We went crazy from start to end. Thank god we had the stupid band booked by the crazy teacher in charge and changed it into a DJ, for no DJ = no party =no fun. We were crazy even when all we were drinking was some orange juice and coke, which of course cannot make you drunk.

I have only one thing to say about the party. We were the center, the core, the life source of the party. Wherever we go people just crowded around us. We were like a magnet for party peepers and just had the party going. Those who were just chilling at the tables, we went and pull them in. Those who were going to stop partying and was bored, we went and dance with them till their party spirits came back. Howe, Derrick, Khai, Hup Eu, Jed, Joel, Vlad...you guys were awesome and I know you guys had an awesome time too. The perfect party gang. The BEST.

There was also a funny thing. When I partied till I was out of gas and was at the brink of fainting. I went to chill and catch my breath at the table. And a teacher, Mr Tatar was like:" Juinn, do you seriously think that this is a party?" LOL...sir, times are different. This is how a party rocks not with an old-man band playing the oldies and people waltzing around.That is just so like a ball, which is not A PARTY~xD

The party was a total success and ended perfectly with everyone satisfied. We also went back too. Exhausted and tired we started chilling and PS3-ing. That ended when Vlad brought more booze with his another friend. There was a lot actually, but nobody drank much except...me. LOL. I was like mixing different kinds together and drinking them and man after awhile, it hit me hard. I was blacked out. I can hear and see but couldn't think straight. I was literally carried out to get some fresh air and then carried in onto the couch. On the way back I even hit Catorina in the face, which of course I apologized and bought chocolates for her which then she forgave me. Then I was carried upstairs to Hup Eu's room and thrown onto the bed. Laura took care of me the whole night. I was so drunk I didn't even know I fell on the floor, damn. Hup Eu then had to sleep in Khai's room who went to sleep with Kiki(his girlfriend, cute couple i must say~xD). Howe had to call my host parents saying that I'm staying over and everything. Joel and the others had to clean up the mess. And well, everybody was just helping me out and I really want to thank them. God you guys r just perfect, the best, the unforgettable, the friends I will never ever wanna forget. Thanks guys. You make my current life perfect and I am grateful for that.

Standing by me when help is needed - friends. So that was how everything ended. LOL. Crazy right. I also promise never to get so drunk ever. Cross my heart. Dudes and ladies, Merry Christmas.

Juinn, hangover, grateful, hoping, praying and loving life.
Over and out. =D