So...you all know what a first crush is right?
Special...Amazing...Pure...and also unforgettable
Well today's my high school 100 years anniversary...
I was sad I missed it and everything so I was looking through some pics and vids posted on fb and insta...
Guess what...I saw my first crush...
For those who doesn't know it was a long time ago...I was 12...
And with just one look I remembered everything.
The feeling...her face when she was younger and how much she actually changed.
Of course she is in a relationship and I have no bad intentions but still...
Everything just came flooding back into my mind...
And I'm pretty sure my heart rate went sky rocket...LOL
WOW...even now I feel like flying...
and I was hit pretty hard when I agree I am totally out of her league.
Damn she is a beauty. And that mole just under her mouth slightly to the left.
ARGH!!!!
Conclusion is that the first crush is...the best...nothing can beat it.
You can forget it but well...it will always be part of you...
Like me. Now that is appeared again...I can't fucking focus on BIOLOGY!!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK...I blame instagram...and my cousin...and her for turning up...
Okay so I'm overacting but guess shit happens to me all the time.
Juinn...trying to forget AGAIN...ciao kekao
Saturday, June 15, 2013
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Life's a dick
So do you know why life's a dick?
because...it gets hard for 'special' reasons~xD
Anyway, so what if life sucks?
Should I cry?
Complain?
Stop living?
Hmmmm...
Fuck it.
I'm so damn pissed off by exams, I don't give a shit.
Or rather exams are shit so why give a fuck.
I obviously need a break.
Lying on the bed.
Reading books.
Thinking of absolutely nothing.
Let my imagination take me.
Away from this shit hole.
Haha nice one.
Okay I'm a little cuckoo right now.
To all who are still breathing.
Cherish life or be perish for time doesn't wait, it just take.
Tick tock tick tock, fuck the world and suck my cock!!
Bwahahahahhaha
Astalabista and saiyanora mathafakas~
Juinn out.
because...it gets hard for 'special' reasons~xD
Anyway, so what if life sucks?
Should I cry?
Complain?
Stop living?
Hmmmm...
Fuck it.
I'm so damn pissed off by exams, I don't give a shit.
Or rather exams are shit so why give a fuck.
I obviously need a break.
Lying on the bed.
Reading books.
Thinking of absolutely nothing.
Let my imagination take me.
Away from this shit hole.
Haha nice one.
Okay I'm a little cuckoo right now.
To all who are still breathing.
Cherish life or be perish for time doesn't wait, it just take.
Tick tock tick tock, fuck the world and suck my cock!!
Bwahahahahhaha
Astalabista and saiyanora mathafakas~
Juinn out.
Sunday, May 19, 2013
Everything will be alright...
A lot has to been going on these few days.
The pain of losing someone...is just unexpectedly painful.
All I want to say is thank you for everything you have done to hold this family together and thanks for believing in me.
阿弥陀佛。
So...life goes on.
For those who are still in pain, I know how you are feeling.
The pain still haunts me some sleepless nights.
But guys, everything will be alright. It always will.
So wipe your tears. Calm yourself and stand up straight.
I'm pretty sure he will want all of us to be strong, just like him.
To be honest, totally bad timing.
With my interview on Monday and exams in the next few weeks, I am totally exhausted. Not even a good night sleep helps. It's...unbearable.
I'm so excited and sad and worried and nervous.
I have no appetite but I still force myself as I need it.
I really hope everything works out well.
I really need this to work out.
So if any of you have some spare luck, you mind wishing me?
Thanks. =]
Juinn.
Hopeful.
Thursday, May 9, 2013
Fuck this and that!
Yes I'm serious. I wanna fuck this n that.
Know why? No? Me neither.
Well after thinking for awhile I think it's because I'm annoyed.
Annoyed of...everything.
Reasons? Cause I hate being pressured.
Makes me want to puke.
e.g.: EXAMS...
shit exams...I really wanna do good but ur name just make me wanna punch something.
I had already put in effort.
I have seen hope so please just please don't let me lose hope.
Just...go easy on me.
Sincerely，
Juinn
(fuck exams)
=)
Know why? No? Me neither.
Well after thinking for awhile I think it's because I'm annoyed.
Annoyed of...everything.
Reasons? Cause I hate being pressured.
Makes me want to puke.
e.g.: EXAMS...
shit exams...I really wanna do good but ur name just make me wanna punch something.
I had already put in effort.
I have seen hope so please just please don't let me lose hope.
Just...go easy on me.
Sincerely，
Juinn
(fuck exams)
=)
Sunday, May 5, 2013
Fuck Politics
I am a politic noob...
I dont give a shit about it...
So I'm just gonna pray for everybody's safety cause ypu never know, some ppl can just do crazy stuff.
Lastly...FUCK BN!!xD
(I just love saying that~^^)
Juinn out.
I dont give a shit about it...
So I'm just gonna pray for everybody's safety cause ypu never know, some ppl can just do crazy stuff.
Lastly...FUCK BN!!xD
(I just love saying that~^^)
Juinn out.
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
As usual
Like I like to say, whenever you feel down think that it's okay, because things can't get any worse right?
Now that I'm starting to feel great, everything just gets worse.
Curse my fucking motto!!!
Focus...focus...focus...
Study...study...study...
Just for your info, what you just said just made my day, no week, maybe even month a lot WORSE...
So...thanks a lot.
Juinn.
Now that I'm starting to feel great, everything just gets worse.
Curse my fucking motto!!!
Focus...focus...focus...
Study...study...study...
Just for your info, what you just said just made my day, no week, maybe even month a lot WORSE...
So...thanks a lot.
Juinn.
Friday, April 19, 2013
WOW...
How many months since I last seen my blog...
I have seriously been lazy...TOO lazy...
Anyways, after reading so many new(and old at the same time) blog posts, I have decided to write something.
Only problem is...what is that something? LOL
Lets start with...things that happened this past few months.
I got to say, things have been pretty excited these past few months.
I got rejected by all 4 universities for Medicine.
I dated someone that I was talked into by my 'lovely' friends.
I went to Munich and Amsterdam with the dudes(of course including my BFF Louis).
I started putting effort into my studies.
I turned 18.
I earned 50 pounds by washing lots and lots of teacups.
I ate a lot of takeaways.
I grew taller.(I think)
I work-shadowed in a hospital.
I didn't had a haircut since Christmas.
and I'm going to finish my A-levels in a few weeks time.
Well the rejections hit me pretty hard, especially the first one. It's like a meteor coming out of no where and hitting my breath out, breaking all my bones and pulverizing me in an instant. (I might have exaggerated a little). I admit I was lost for awhile. I was jealous of my friends who got offers, because of their 'special' skin colours. Like what my Chemistry teacher said:"Life isn't fair. Get over it." And I did. So after discussing for weeks and a few arguments, I have decided to enroll myself in IMU and study Medicine. Good thing they have a special programme where I can go to either UK or US after two and a half years. I'm seriously going to miss this place...
To be honest, I had no idea whatsoever in the 'let-Juinn-date-someone-before-he-leaves' mission. It was Spring Fling. I had a few drinks. I kissed someone. Done. Nothing more. However I did learn something for this weird experience. I miss being in love and kissing someone I'm not into is just...unsatisfying. I seriously need to train my endurance skills PRONTO!!!
Munich trip was nice and chill and...nice. Thanks to Louis and his dad, I had a great time. Good food, good beer, good scenery, good good good. On the other hand, Amsterdam trip was...a one heck of a trip. Shit happened. Once in a lifetime experience. And...I'm never going back to that place again. Although I got to say it is a very beautiful city. Also the ASOT experience was mind-blowing! For those who doesn't know ASOT stands for A state of trance where DJs play trance music which is something I'm new in but I kinda like it.
Putting effort into my studies is just something that came out of no where. An accident. I actually kinda enjoy it, but still so not the original me.
Ooooh...I turned 18. I'm officially old(by my own standards). 18 huh? Nothing much. A few drinks. Felt like an adult, but miss being a naive childish kid. Okay I'm starting to feel sad because of the fact I'm 18 so lets skip to the next one shale we?
Hard earned money is always the sweetest one. 50 pounds. Not much but still it was a fun, nice and cool experience. My once smooth hands became slightly rough but it was worth it.
Takeaways are very tempting. I have a bad feeling they might actually drug us to make us addicted to the food or something. The hard earned money above, most of it used for takeaways. Sad but it's the truth.
I grew taller. I'm not sure. Just a feeling as people and thins are getting smaller. However, my height is just not good enough. Grow Juinn! GROW! Hormones to your thing!
The hospital experience is one of the most valuable one. Surgeries, diagnosing, therapies, appointments, chatting with doctors. These are so so so awesome, I can't tell you how much I love it. The walk every morning was worth it and so you know I had to walk 40 minutes every morning in my leather shoes which isn't easy. I got to meet people who I am actually still in contact with, know some basics about being a doctor, pros and cons of being one and also preparing myself to face my absurd crazy future of being a doctor. Honestly I was creeped out by what they first told me but letting it sink in made me hold on to my decision much much stronger. Booyeah!
Haircuts here are so expensive so...don't blame my laziness. :P
Lastly before I go back to studying, I just want to say I'm seriously gonna miss this place and even though I might not be coming back again, you guys will always be in my memories and stories that I will tell others. I will say we are best friends, because good friends listen to my stories, but best friends will always be in my stories. Cheers guys and may the force be with you...during the exams. Good luck.
Juinn
over....n out =)
I have seriously been lazy...TOO lazy...
Anyways, after reading so many new(and old at the same time) blog posts, I have decided to write something.
Only problem is...what is that something? LOL
Lets start with...things that happened this past few months.
I got to say, things have been pretty excited these past few months.
I got rejected by all 4 universities for Medicine.
I dated someone that I was talked into by my 'lovely' friends.
I went to Munich and Amsterdam with the dudes(of course including my BFF Louis).
I started putting effort into my studies.
I turned 18.
I earned 50 pounds by washing lots and lots of teacups.
I ate a lot of takeaways.
I grew taller.(I think)
I work-shadowed in a hospital.
I didn't had a haircut since Christmas.
and I'm going to finish my A-levels in a few weeks time.
Well the rejections hit me pretty hard, especially the first one. It's like a meteor coming out of no where and hitting my breath out, breaking all my bones and pulverizing me in an instant. (I might have exaggerated a little). I admit I was lost for awhile. I was jealous of my friends who got offers, because of their 'special' skin colours. Like what my Chemistry teacher said:"Life isn't fair. Get over it." And I did. So after discussing for weeks and a few arguments, I have decided to enroll myself in IMU and study Medicine. Good thing they have a special programme where I can go to either UK or US after two and a half years. I'm seriously going to miss this place...
To be honest, I had no idea whatsoever in the 'let-Juinn-date-someone-before-he-leaves' mission. It was Spring Fling. I had a few drinks. I kissed someone. Done. Nothing more. However I did learn something for this weird experience. I miss being in love and kissing someone I'm not into is just...unsatisfying. I seriously need to train my endurance skills PRONTO!!!
Munich trip was nice and chill and...nice. Thanks to Louis and his dad, I had a great time. Good food, good beer, good scenery, good good good. On the other hand, Amsterdam trip was...a one heck of a trip. Shit happened. Once in a lifetime experience. And...I'm never going back to that place again. Although I got to say it is a very beautiful city. Also the ASOT experience was mind-blowing! For those who doesn't know ASOT stands for A state of trance where DJs play trance music which is something I'm new in but I kinda like it.
Putting effort into my studies is just something that came out of no where. An accident. I actually kinda enjoy it, but still so not the original me.
Ooooh...I turned 18. I'm officially old(by my own standards). 18 huh? Nothing much. A few drinks. Felt like an adult, but miss being a naive childish kid. Okay I'm starting to feel sad because of the fact I'm 18 so lets skip to the next one shale we?
Hard earned money is always the sweetest one. 50 pounds. Not much but still it was a fun, nice and cool experience. My once smooth hands became slightly rough but it was worth it.
Takeaways are very tempting. I have a bad feeling they might actually drug us to make us addicted to the food or something. The hard earned money above, most of it used for takeaways. Sad but it's the truth.
I grew taller. I'm not sure. Just a feeling as people and thins are getting smaller. However, my height is just not good enough. Grow Juinn! GROW! Hormones to your thing!
The hospital experience is one of the most valuable one. Surgeries, diagnosing, therapies, appointments, chatting with doctors. These are so so so awesome, I can't tell you how much I love it. The walk every morning was worth it and so you know I had to walk 40 minutes every morning in my leather shoes which isn't easy. I got to meet people who I am actually still in contact with, know some basics about being a doctor, pros and cons of being one and also preparing myself to face my absurd crazy future of being a doctor. Honestly I was creeped out by what they first told me but letting it sink in made me hold on to my decision much much stronger. Booyeah!
Haircuts here are so expensive so...don't blame my laziness. :P
Lastly before I go back to studying, I just want to say I'm seriously gonna miss this place and even though I might not be coming back again, you guys will always be in my memories and stories that I will tell others. I will say we are best friends, because good friends listen to my stories, but best friends will always be in my stories. Cheers guys and may the force be with you...during the exams. Good luck.
Juinn
over....n out =)
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