Q&A

What do you do when you have different answers for a question?

They are both right, they both make lots of sense,

but you just can't make your decision to choose either one of them.

They say it's hard to make people listen, understand and accept your opinion.

That is totally true.

It's harder when that person is you yourself.

To be honest, this answer can make a HUGE change in my life,

especially my future.

That...isn't helping at all.

So here is the question:

Follow my heart and be happy?

Follow my head and be steady?

Try to do both with the risk of failing both?

Or should I just forget about it and move on with my life, which is kinda boring by now.

Another sleepless night.

Another starless sky.

Another answerless question.

Goodnight, good morning, good day, wherever you are.

Let's do it~

Recently, weird thoughts have been popping into my head.
Thoughts of the future, twisted and painful.

Might be cause it's my last two weeks back at home.
It always get worse when something is coming to an end.

In these thoughts, tragedy or accidents seems to never end.
People that I care getting hurt, harmed...
the agony is killing me.

To be honest, I can't keep going on like this.
I need somebody to lean on,
and I hope the time will come soon.

On the other hand, I'm going back to Cardiff soon.
Second year, going to put in more effort.
With a strong heart, I will face it head on.
Wait for me, I'm on the way.

Something I heard today,
Don't just think think think, DO! (sorry the woman had very bad English ;))

Let's DO it!!! :)

Life & Time, it has been while...

A year has passed in a blink of an eye.
Many things forgotten without me realising.
It's only when I check my bookmark that I remember,
how long has it been since I wrote in my blog.

Time moves forward, ignoring all that tries to stop it.
Life is like an idiot, that never leave time's ass out of sight.
So once in awhile, when Time allows, ask to look back in Life.
Love, passion, interest, pain, knowledge, time...
Those that were once important, are now nothing but a memory.

Not to tell you to never look forward again.
Not to tell you to never look back and recall the good and bad times.

Do you know why Life continues along this path,
even though at the end of Time,
there is nothing but Death? End of existence?
That is because he knows without looking back,
A trail of memories have been left behind.

Even after leaving,
Life, YOUR Life still lives on.
All that you felt, all that you have been through,
will forever be in people's hearts,
cause MEMORY is the only one who can never be tied down by Time.

Live, Bond, Love
Even if it hurts,
Feel, Hate, Forgive
Cause Life moves on, never leaving Time alone...

Maybe it's time...

...to move on.

(￣▽￣)

Chiang Mai, Thailand.

20/09 - 02/10/2013

I actually already finished another blog post with a more details of my trip in Chiang Mai, but...I thought it's better not to post it. Like what we said:" What happened in Chiang Mai stays in Chiang Mai."

No loose ends. (seriously you don't want to know everything)

Two weeks.
Twenty friends from all around the globe.
Two hospitals.
A home.

I'll never forget everything.
From the experience I gained in the hospitals.
From the chats we had when we live in a no TV and wifi zone.
From the stories and jokes we shared in the dining area.
From the 'accident' where I fell in the pool.
From the delicious Thai cuisines Esther cooked.
From the shopping in the night markets.
And lastly from the stuff we swore never to see again.

It was perfect.
Because I started unwilling to go, but came home unwilling to leave.
You guys share the same passion as me, and maybe that's why we all bonded in such short time.

It was interesting.
Because I witnessed surgeries and diagnosis that I had never seen before, and now I have.
The doctor were good even when hospital conditions weren't perfect. Lives were saved.

It was unforgettable.
Because of Friday night(s), Halloween dinner river cruise.
The food and atmosphere was the highlight of the dinner and will stay in my memory forever.
(unless of course if I have brain diseases where it is totally impossible for me to remember. LOL!)

Thank you.
It was worth it.
Bon Voyage and we will meet again.

Love
Juinn

一步一步慢慢走...

Finally I'm starting to self-motivate myself to move on. Seriously, staying in the same place just pissed me off.

So...I took a step.

I'm going to Thailand~~!!

Obviously I'm excited. 1. I'm going alone. 2. It's related to medicine so duh~xD

The cost...hmmm...don't ask, it'll make me want to lie face down on the floor and cry the shit out of myself.

That is why my aim is to make friends why god knows who and rock their world...without entering drunk mode hopefully.

20th of this month...can't wait!!xDDDDD

Then another step.

I, the god of laziness and sleeping, am spending a large amount of my time...to...exercise. LOL~xD

Everyday I jog. I play basketball (alone at home). Does sound a little sad.

Anyway I think I lost weight, or maybe I hope I gained weight by putting on some muscles.

Yes, I dream like all the other guys.

It does make me feel so much...better. I don't feel zombified or liquidified or wake up thinking I'm the puke monster. It is absolutely beneficial~

It's also kinda addictive. A day without jogging, I just feel so restless and my whole body will go cuckoo~

Another small step is spending time with my parents.

Baking with mom. Love baking COOKIES~~xD

A new hobby I hope just as soon as I can differentiate the ingredients.

Shopping with mom. A big change cause I DON'T ADORE shopping of any kind.

It zaps the energy out of me but whatever makes her happy makes me happy. =)

Talking (a lot) with dad. Just to keep him company.

My dad aged a lot this past few months. Must be due to the loss of his brother (my uncle) and the surgery.

But i got to say he looks better, after the surgery. It's like a whole new happy smiling version of him. Nice right~xD

Small steps but I feel that I accomplished quite a lot. I feel way better than before. I feel...motivated. =)

So to all out there who is feeling unmotivated...1. smile 2. make some aims and 3. accomplished them.

Good luck and may the force be with you.

Juinn

Over and out.

中秋节

今年的中秋节，和以往不同。

大哥，二哥已返美国。

爸爸开刀住院，妈妈住院陪爸。

明天，九月十九日，大大的家里，只剩我和我弟。

以前的我可能会很兴奋，但现在的我只感到一身空虚。可悲。

如果我可以许愿的话或许愿会成真的话，我希望爸爸，大哥，二哥，妈妈，弟弟都顺顺利利，以后才能再一家团聚。

Peace to all... 

Regards

Juinn

Currently in Pantai Hospital Melaka,

Watching crappy movies.