Wake-up Call

To be truthful, I'm seriously hot in the head right now.
Finally I had the initiative to do something important, and did I receive any compliment?
No...no...NO!
~~*chilling*~~

When I got my results, the world just when oopsie dasie and I was seriously in a greyish mood.
And just when I needed some time alone, bla bla bla u guys just really know how to spoil my mood, or to be more precise make the mood from bad to worse, and for that I thank you.
You just know me well, like BULLSHIT!

After a while to think and a short vacation which I had enjoyed and currently suffering from, I got back the motivation and determination to fight again!
I decided to take my chances.
Who cares if I didn't do better than the others, I tried my best.
To be more precise I tried my luck.
That wasn't really my best, which I totally regretted.

Everybody meets a barrier every once in a while.
Mine came now.
Some people thinks of giving up.
Some determined people thinks of breaking a hole in the wall and go through.
However some people like me, goes for a more logical way, use a ladder which means taking a risk.
I might end up like humpty dumpty, fall off and breaks, never to return.
I'm willing to take that chance.
Call me stubborn for not listening or self-esteemed for being so stuck up.
My mind is made up and I am walking it all the way through.
Like I like to say: "KICK ASS TIME!!"

I have never tried my best in anything before.
Never, cause trying is limitless and there is no best in trying.
So I'm making a promise, to take everything I have to the limit and the limitless.
Even if I spit blood and die in the process.
People made it through, why can't I?
I'm not special but I'm normal enough to be normal.

I might lose a chance an opportunity.
But I'm not crying over it.
I'm going to seek for a new chance and opportunity.
Laugh at my failure but don't look down at me.

Today I make a pact with myself.
Tomorrow I make a promise to myself.

I'm not going to be the lowest in the food chain.
Neither am I going to be the highest in the food chain.
I just want to proof that I am qualified enough to be in the food chain.

Life goes on~~~~
All the best~~~~
Juinn~~~~~~~
Out~~~~~~~

9th August...A BAD day...

"Bad Day"

Where is the moment we needed the most

You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

They tell me your blue skies fade to grey

They tell me your passion's gone away

And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low

You're faking a smile with the coffee to go

You tell me your life's been way off line

You're falling to pieces everytime

And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

The camera don't lie

You're coming back down and you really don't mind

You had a bad day

You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday

The point is they laugh at what you say

And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

The camera don't lie

You're coming back down and you really don't mind

You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink

And the whole thing turns out wrong

You might not make it back and you know

That you could be well oh that strong

And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most

Oh you and I

You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

You've seen what you like

And how does it feel for one more time

You had a bad day

You had a bad day

Had a bad day

Had a bad day

Had a bad day

Had a bad day

Had a bad day

P.S: to be precise, my mum had an accident, my bro lost my dog, i chased the dog, i feel so lost, but...im feeling awesome n 10th August I start with a happy mood...xD

Bragging of My Perseverance

That title is just so wrong, but still I really want to start by bragging:
3 damn whole days without facebook.
Actually by deactivating my account made me realize that I stil exist.
Not that I don't think I exist, just that I needed a proof or something.

So to help stop my addiction to fb, I just make myself damn busy.
Books that aren't that bad, but seriously I'm having problems reading Chinese characters fast.
Watching TV series aren't bad too. "Awkward" is really a very nice show, talking bout a teenagers life. Reminding me that somethings are important and that somethings kills, literally.
The Olympics were quite exciting too, but watching with my family isn't really a very...good idea.
Playing basketball is sweet. Even when I have to play it by myself, sweating just makes me refresh. I feel different in a good way.
And of course working on my Personal Statement. 1,500 words isn't really enough so going to work harder. OOOSH!!!!

I have been thinking a lot.
And I mean A LOT.
but still I can't make out a conclusion of what I have been thinking.
Everything just seems so messy.
First I was thinking of A then suddenly B pops out.
Getting worse when C and D jumps in and cracks the party.
Do u know how that feels cause I'm suffering.

That's why I needed a time out from everything I knew.
Not escaping, just a temporary escape from reality.
Can things really workout the way we want them to?
Sometimes yeah, but sometimes not really right?
Maybe that's why I'm panicking. I'm afraid.
LOL.

Well today is the day facebook reopens in my life and the day I reopen my eyes to the world again.
No more running or looking back.

11 days
The time left till I get my results.
After waiting for so long I'm so so panic.
What if I...
Wait, no whats if this time.
So I'm waiting.

P.S: The rain this morning was kind of nice. Missed it.
so to those who needs to STUDY, STUDY!
so to those waiting for their results, GOOD LUCK!^^
Here is a thing to think of:
Will the world end this year 2012? If it does what will you do?
If not how will your life continue? As usual? Or a change is needed?

BOOYEAH to all humans~~xD
Lim Hse Juinn.=)