I'm melting......T.T

yes, im seriously melting...
oh god wat a day.

First like to start by saying Im FREEEEEEEE~~~~xD
oh yeah!!!!
n about a month later, malaysia here i come...^^
told ya i miss home~`XD

so today is a VERYYYYYYYYYYY hot day...sunny with no damn clouds...
and today is also the garden fair tat i volunteered to do charity...boooyah
and..i got sunburn...lucky me...T.T

i was prepared for it since we were standing under the sun the WHOLE day...
it was fun too
i got my host parents a lily plant(i think)
n im growing some flowers outside my window..hope it survives under my care...^^
we were selling plats, moving plants, digging holes to put in plants, watering plants, throwing plants(joking)..ahaha..xDD
it was truly a wonderful day...we took pics when we're chilling so no pics of us working our ass out.../_____\
but who cares, me had fun n me gusta~~XD

so now tat the charity work is done...time to focus on planning THE TRIP to scotland...^^
im so so excited...n of course the mini term which of course im not tat excited...haha...xD
n man im so hot...>.<...i might be a vampire...O.O
nah...impossible..i think...xD
so...tonight there is a eurostar show or something like tat n my host parents warned me they r going to go mad...so...gotta prepared myself...finger crossed tat i survive...xD

so juinn living his life his way...happily n enjoying...learning n sulking(as usual)xD
gud luck to ppl out there and god bless u...may the force be with u...^_^

Conclusion for today...BIO KILLS

the title shows everything
so u can guess wat happened to me rite...
i DIED

it just didn't seem right..all the words n question were out of chart.
i was suffering inside...
okay im over doing it...
but seriously...im kinda worried i might get a B...
lets hope its an A...for my future...pls lucky rose...>.< worst of all...i almost actually fainted (no kidding) i was doing my paper till halfway n almost tried to self suicide and i look up to see the clock just three meters away from my eyes and i couldn't see the time not tat i dont know, it's that i cannot... and worst follows the worst. I panicked. yay...the rest of the paper was bullshit... totally bullshitty piece of shit... fuck u bio...
i was like a dead body, the living dead when i came out n the headmistress almost screamed when she saw me...haha...(i said almost)
and yeah...pray for me please...jsut three more days n im free...n i can do gardening.
PLEASE!PLEASE!
lemme survive the wrath of the stupid exams...
n i promise...i'll do my best in the future...maybe even better than now...just dont let me die kay?

AMITABHA~~~~~~~~~
for tis time...bless me.../.\

This happens when u think too much after having an exam...n u need to blog

Well...half way through my exam n im thinking too much again.
Damn tis bad habit of mine can never change.
Cause when i think too much, I go into 'emo' state.
and i'll start to feel depressed.

SHIT SHIT SHIT!!!!!!!!

Okay.
What was i gonna say?

Oh yeah.
I'm gonna go straight to the icky part so here goes.
I miss home.
Done. Tats what makes me so...icky.
Shit i hate missing things ppl n home.
you'll suddenly think, can i go home or shit why does UK have to be so far.

you might think i'm happy but nopey nope nope.
I'm feel damn shitty.
Worst is when ur parents care of u so much they message u everyday
n when u see their messages, first u'll feel icky, then u reply as manners, then ur heart aches, and ur eyes start to fill up with water. Next day ur friends ask 'why ur eyes look so red? watched porn'
hahahahahahahahha...LOL...damn tats just so...akward.
As i said, me no gud with tis.

My exams, truth is, I never revise for my exams. never since i was born (true story).
I just go into 'thinking mode'.
Then i just start feeling bad.
VERY VERY bad.
SHIT

the worst is when a childhood friend of urs skype u
n u didnt want to do it be4 but u just called.
N when u just wanna cry cause he suddenly say
'Juinn, man i miss the days when u poke my tummy n i call u names'
I almost cried.
haha...man i suck with such things n i thought i was awesome...haha
thinking of it...those were the days.
nothing to worry, just live a day by a day following the flow.

okay. although im reluctant to say, but still they wont know, so...
I miss my bros..the fatty gor, ah liang, n tat watermelon.
Irreplaceable. looking forward to August when we all go for holidays together, n fight n cry n laugh again, together.
wondering, when was the last time we were together? two years ago. so short yet so long.
(people seeing tis, never tell them, thx)

eyes blurring
gtg
bye
hold on to what u have now, or u'll cry like damn shit like me in the future.
if u have a brother or sister, just take one night n look at the stars with them, might be fun...=)

Writing something be4 the next two important weeks in my god damn life~~

Time passes like so fast, damn fast.
Already five months.
Wow.

And tomorrow is the day, the day (I hope) I make history.
For no reason, I feel confident.
Might be because thanks to my fatty louis, I feel so confident, I just feel like sleeping rite now.

I wanna fly.
That's all.
So if anyone see this, pray for me.
That's all I'll ask from you.

I'm not falling.
I'm never gonna fall.
Cause I hate it.
Even if my wings are broken.
I will keep flying.
Even when I am not fully prepare.
I will still fly.
Cause I want to FLY.

Seems so near, what I used to thought would be so far from me.
It used to be like thousands and thousands of miles away.
Now. Just take a train and I can be anywhere.
So I'm not letting go. Oh no.
I'm gonna grab hold of it until my hands burn of pain and I cry like a baby.

So.
God bless me and all the souls ready to withstand what our ancestors found for us. Tons and tons of knowledge.
One day, I'm gonna learn all of them. Those I hate, and those I love.
Cause to me, learning is paradise.
While studying what I learned is damn shitty

King Prawns Can Often Feel Good Shitty.
(secret code, dont guess if ur no biologist^^)

Good luck and happy hunting~~
Sun, i wanna shine like you^^

Juinn out

The SUN? or The MOON?

Sun, shining brightly, spreading warmth to all living things in the world.
Moon, shining beautifully, taking space in the sky, yet making it look way more beautiful...or as i usually say...AWESOME...xD

If you were to choose the SUN or the MOON? Which will you choose?

Well, the first thing I do when I thought of this question(which came out of no where), I look up to the sky. Sun shining with such intensity, I wouldn't be surprise if my eyes burn out if I keep looking at it the whole day. Why shine so bright and not let anybody see that beautiful sight?

And now I look up to the sky again, and as usual, I see the sight I love most. It shines of course but with lights so soft it feels so good when you keep looking at it. Now that is what I'm talking about!xD

Beautiful things is meant to be shown to everyone. Shine to capture their eyes but with such softness people can admire your beauty.

Apply this to life and you'll see. If you shine so bright everybody sees you. You may think "oh great I have tons of friends" but too bright, you'll hurt them more.

So be a moon, shine softly to all people you love and care and of course with equal brightness so that all of them can see the same beautiful you, and admire your special light.

Live life and shine with style~~~^.^

Now done with the philosophy and weird thinkings.
Oh my god did I just wrote all of that!!!!O.O
I CAN BE A PHILOSOPHER~~~~xDDDDDD(like I will...=.=)

Whatever looks cool though.
So today just feels like expressing my inner excitement.
First of all, thanks to my teachers for complimenting me in my testimony and I finally confirmed A CHANCE to work shadow in NGH!!!!XD(it stand for Northampton General Hospital i think or what my friends interpret it as, NO GOOD HOSPITAL(he hates hospital, thats why))
Secondly, 12 days to go, till my exams, should say I'm prepared but not fully, so gotta put more effort! OOSH!>v< Thirdly, is good news after exams. Guess what? I took a friends advice and decided to go for holidays in EUROPE~~~but not Paris which she recommended but --- Portugal with the lovely beaches and 'bitches'..haha..that is kinda rude...ah well..XD Fourthly, can u believe that me LIM HSE JUINN the aweosmeness is doing CHARITY...wow..im surprised if you are not surprised. But gardening is fun right^^. Fifthly, I have to admit, I MISS HOME, damn I hate the feeling of waiting for time to pass..ish...>.<

Oh god I stink and I wanna go bath so...live life and stay healthy kay?
Take in more water, glucose and vitamins. Only then will you survive the wrath of the EXAMS!!!ahahha..XD

As I said: Life needs color, this time I'm gonna say: Add color to it YOURSELF^^
only then will you live a life you will never forget~~
Ulala~~Juinn over n out
Gambateh my fellow homo sapiens~~=)