This happens when u think too much after having an exam...n u need to blog

Well...half way through my exam n im thinking too much again.
Damn tis bad habit of mine can never change.
Cause when i think too much, I go into 'emo' state.
and i'll start to feel depressed.

SHIT SHIT SHIT!!!!!!!!

Okay.
What was i gonna say?

Oh yeah.
I'm gonna go straight to the icky part so here goes.
I miss home.
Done. Tats what makes me so...icky.
Shit i hate missing things ppl n home.
you'll suddenly think, can i go home or shit why does UK have to be so far.

you might think i'm happy but nopey nope nope.
I'm feel damn shitty.
Worst is when ur parents care of u so much they message u everyday
n when u see their messages, first u'll feel icky, then u reply as manners, then ur heart aches, and ur eyes start to fill up with water. Next day ur friends ask 'why ur eyes look so red? watched porn'
hahahahahahahahha...LOL...damn tats just so...akward.
As i said, me no gud with tis.

My exams, truth is, I never revise for my exams. never since i was born (true story).
I just go into 'thinking mode'.
Then i just start feeling bad.
VERY VERY bad.
SHIT

the worst is when a childhood friend of urs skype u
n u didnt want to do it be4 but u just called.
N when u just wanna cry cause he suddenly say
'Juinn, man i miss the days when u poke my tummy n i call u names'
I almost cried.
haha...man i suck with such things n i thought i was awesome...haha
thinking of it...those were the days.
nothing to worry, just live a day by a day following the flow.

okay. although im reluctant to say, but still they wont know, so...
I miss my bros..the fatty gor, ah liang, n tat watermelon.
Irreplaceable. looking forward to August when we all go for holidays together, n fight n cry n laugh again, together.
wondering, when was the last time we were together? two years ago. so short yet so long.
(people seeing tis, never tell them, thx)

eyes blurring
gtg
bye
hold on to what u have now, or u'll cry like damn shit like me in the future.
if u have a brother or sister, just take one night n look at the stars with them, might be fun...=)